Tuesday 31 December 2019

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Stock Happy New Year Photo.

Happy New Year! So this is what 2020 vision looks like. I couldn't resist using the joke everyone will be using. I hope you had a safe start into the New Year, whether you were staying in or going out. Did 2019 treat you okay?

To all my friends and family, thank you for making 2019, and indeed the 10s a wonderful experience, and supporting me through highs and lows. I can only hope I did a good job at helping you through your highs and lows. 

With a New Year comes resolutions. Last year, which I actually kept to, was to reconnect with old friends. I have four friends in my life who I dip in and out of contact with, and 2019 allowed me the chance to not only speak to them more regularly, but meet up with them in person at least once. Which was the most rewarding thing. 

So what are my resolutions for 2020? This year I'm combining my personal and professional resolutions and only having five between them, in the hopes that I'll be able to stick to them. In no particular order, here are my resolutions:
  • Enjoy writing. This includes blog posts as well as stories, reviews or any other writing I may do.
  • Stick with things even when they seem tough.
  • Keep learning. 
  • Read and/or watch a classic each month. 
  • Try to cut out the toxic things in my life.
With any luck I'll be able to stick to those, so we shall see come the end of this year. 

Once again, have a Happy [and safe] New Year! May 2020 be kind to you!

-Emmaberry-

The 10s: A Decade in Review

10 Years of Change


The last 10 years can only be described as constant change and personal growth. That does come from starting the decade as a child, to ending it as an adult.
In 2010 I was 11 years old, and at the time being bullied by some of my peers. Now, at the end of 2019, I'm 21 years old and have become someone my 11 year old self never dreamed I'd become. 

In this decade, I discovered the moral I live by, from an actor in Broadway's 'Dear Evan Hansen.'
I mean, I think it's impossible to try to worry about fitting in because no matter what happens somebody isn't gonna like you. Whether they're projecting onto you, or, you know maybe you just don't gel with that person. So I think as difficult as it is, just be your most authentic version of yourself. It's truly the only thing you can do. Because if you spend time not doing that, I think you're wasting time getting to know yourself, and you should be your own best friend.
If I could tell my 11 year old self anything, it would definitely be this. I spent so much time worrying about what I liked, who liked me, being too nerdy (believe it or not at one point I refused to wear fandom tops because I was worried about judgement), and even my writing. I tried for most of secondary school to keep it a secret because I didn't want the judgement from my peers.

But moving on from secondary school, I decided to do a round up of some of my favourite things from this decade. There won't be any photos on this post, but the list I've compiled is:

  • Age
  • Favourite Singer/Band
  • Favourite Song
  • Favourite Film
  • Favourite TV Show
  • Favourite Book
  • A High Moment
  • A Low Moment
I'm relying a lot on memory here, but I'm going to do my best to keep it true to what it was back then as I possibly can.

2010

Age: 11/12
Favourite Singer/Band: Taylor Swift
Favourite Song: Everybody in Love - JLS
Favourite Film: Twilight
Favourite TV Show: Doctor Who
Favourite Book: Bloodlust by Alex Duval
A High Moment: Achieving my yellow belt in TaeKwonDo.
A Low Moment: Being dragged into drama that I didn't want to be involved in.


2011

Age: 12/13
Favourite Singer/Band: Big Time Rush
Favourite Song: What Makes You Beautiful - One Direction
Favourite Film: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2
Favourite TV Show: Victorious
Favourite Book: Divergent - Veronica Roth
A High Moment: Starting KickBoxing.
A Low Moment: Being dragged into more drama - the first two years of secondary school brought me a lot of unnecessary drama.


2012

Age: 13/14
Favourite Singer/Band: One Direction
Favourite Song: Wings - Little Mix
Favourite Film: Twilight: Breaking Dawn Part 1
Favourite TV Show: Big Time Rush
Favourite Book: Initiation - Alex Duval
A High Moment: Getting guinea pigs.
A Low Moment: The car accident.


2013

Age: 14/15
Favourite Singer/Band: One Direction
Favourite Song: Best Song Ever - One Direction
Favourite Film: Man of Steel
Favourite TV Show: The Fosters
Favourite Book: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
A High Moment: Going to my first tattoo convention. 
A Low Moment: It seems ridiculous, but having my writing outed to a lot of the year group by one of my classmates.


2014

Age: 15/16
Favourite Singer/Band: Lyon Estate
Favourite Song: Catch Me - Lyon Estate
Favourite Film: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
Favourite TV Show: The Fosters
Favourite Book: Two Boys Kissing - David Leviathan
A High Moment: Getting a short story published in an anthology.
A Low Moment: Discovering that I have exam anxiety, and low blood pressure.


2015

Age: 16/17
Favourite Singer/Band: Lyon Estate
Favourite Song: Carry on My Wayward Son - Kansas
Favourite Film: Star Wars: The Force Awakens
Favourite TV Show: Supernatural
Favourite Book: Divine by Mistake - P.C. Cast
A High Moment: Seeing the short story I wrote adapted into a short film.
A Low Moment: A holiday that went horribly wrong and awakened my travel anxiety.


2016

Age: 17/18
Favourite Singer/Band: Shawn Mendes
Favourite Song: If You Know What I Mean - Lyon Estate
Favourite Film: Me Before You
Favourite TV Show: MacGyver
Favourite Book: Me Before You - JoJo Moyes
A High Moment: Getting into Derby Uni through clearing.
A Low Moment: Not getting the grades I wanted in my A Levels and missing out on my first two choices for uni.


2017

Age: 18/19
Favourite Singer/Band: All Time Low
Favourite Song: Somewhere in Neverland - All Time Low
Favourite Film: Beauty and the Beast
Favourite TV Show: Stranger Things
Favourite Book: Memories - Lang Leav
A High Moment: Going to FanFest with one of my best friends.
A Low Moment: Living with my first year housemate. It wasn't the best environment to live in.


2018

Age: 19/20
Favourite Singer/Band: The cast of Mamma Mia: Here We Go Again
Favourite Song: Talk Too Much - COIN
Favourite Film: Call Me By Your Name
Favourite TV Show: You
Favourite Book: Mythos - Stephen Fry
A High Moment: Cosplaying when I went back to the Studio Tour.
A Low Moment: Having an early piece of writing criticised without it being constructive.

2019

Age: 20/21
Favourite Singer/Band: 3ree
Favourite Song: Sincerely, Me - Dear Evan Hansen Cast
Favourite Film: Beautiful Boy
Favourite TV Show: Mindhunter
Favourite Book: Machines Like Me - Ian McEwan
A High Moment: Graduating uni with a 2:1
A Low Moment: Having a breakdown in Singapore airport - I was so overwhelmed that all I could do was cry for three hours.


And there we go. It's so interesting how much I've changed, just based on my tastes in music, literature and songs. Some of the high and low moments took me a long time to think of, particularly the 2019 one. I don't see that as a low moment, just an overwhelmed one, but it took a lot to share the photo on my personal Facebook. 

Anyway, I hope the 2020 and the 20s will allow me to grow even more as a person. 

See you soon!

-Emmaberry-


2019: A Year in Review

A Great End to the Decade


They say life begins at the end of your comfort zone, and 2019 has proven that more true than any year this decade. But it doesn't say that you should be mentally and/or physically ready to stray from your comfort zone. 
This year has been the most challenging year and rewarding year yet, from graduation, to theatre trips, to travelling around the world. Even with how difficult some of it was, I wouldn't change any of these experiences or the lessons I learnt from them. 
There have been so many more highlights from the year, so I'll try to keep each big one brief. The smaller highlights I'll keep to myself - this post will already be long enough without every highlight being mentioned.

January:

The year kicked off with seeing 'Harry Potter and the Cursed Child: Part 1 and Part 2' in London with a couple of friends. I wanted to see the play on the West End so I could give it a fair review - the script doesn't do it any justice. Whilst I still don't see the play as canon, seeing it on stage with the score and acting is much better than just reading the script. Next time I go see the show I'll book different seats, as our £15 ones were restricted view. 


Sitting outside The Palace Theatre. Photo Credit: Imogen Burns

Towards the end of the month, Imogen and I went to Disneyland Paris, and it was just magical! We got a lot done in the two days we were there, and yet it felt like we had done nothing at all. From being forced to wait 6 hours and bonding with the other girls in the lobby, to meeting our favourite characters, riding all the rides we wanted and watching the parades and illuminations - nothing can compare. It was a holiday that meant a lot more than just Disney magic, and I learnt to just go with the flow a little bit more.

Meeting Peter Pan. 
Think of the happiest thing, it's the same as having wings.

February

I don't have many pictures from this month. A lot that happened were little things, such as walking around London, or having a friend visit for a couple of days. 
I did turn 21, but there was no big spectacle about it. We just had takeaway and watched some films. Which suits me just fine, we don't need to do big events all the time. Besides, March had two big events, so I could build up to those this month. 


March: 

In 2017, I had a concert in the middle of the month, then 'Disney on Ice' at the end of the month. This time it was the other way around. 

'Disney on Ice' is a show that changes with every season and this second time was better than the first. I've joked with the friend that I went with that we'll go every two years to see it, so we'll see if we go again in 2021. Despite the troubles with the trains, we had a wonderful day and enjoyed it immensely. 


Disney on Ice
I can hear Princess Party from DLP playing. 

Panic! At The Disco was such a wonderful way to end the month. Imogen and I have been wanting to see them for a long time, and we were so lucky to be able to go. It's up there as one of my favourite concerts of all time; I just loved the music, the atmosphere and the people who I was with. 

So many photos, so little space on this review.

April

April was the month of birthdays, and finishing coursework. Though I've got pictures from the birthdays I celebrated, I'm not going to share them this time. It was so lovely to just spend time with friends and really enjoy it. I even forgot about coursework for a couple of days, which is always a relief close to deadlines.


May

Another month of small highlights. I submitted my final pieces of coursework for my uni career, we had the end of term party and end of third year party and another friend visit us. Once again, I won't share those photos, they're better kept for personal use. It was a fun month and really nice to just relax after a stressful year. 


June

I only had one big event in June, and it was seeing 'Everybody's Talking About Jamie' on the West End. The tickets were Imogen's 21st birthday present and it was well worth it. Seeing Bianca Del Rio as Loco Chanel was a work of art. It was the first musical I'd been to since the 'Lion King' when I was in secondary school and the atmosphere was fantastic. I fell in love with musical theatre all over again. 


Outside the Apollo Theatre after the show. Photo Credit: Imogen Burns.

July

I graduated! After three years, a lot of stress and anxieties, I actually graduated uni with a 2:1. It doesn't matter what the destination is, it's how you get there and this is one journey I worked incredibly hard on. 
'High School Musical' lied to me though - graduation is nothing like they make it out to be. In reality it's a lot of clapping, and realisations that the day is actually here. It was such a special day though and one I'll never forget. 


One of my graduation photos. Photo Credit: My Grandad.

August

Honestly, August was my quietest month of this year. I was preparing for Fiji and spending my time volunteering in the library again. I saw some friends this month, but there was nothing too exciting going on in terms of big events.  

September

The month where I travelled the world in three days... via plane travel. I wasn't mentally ready to go to the other side of the world, and it showed because my coping mechanisms didn't work. I had a breakdown in Singapore and I knew I was in way over my head when I arrived in Fiji. Despite this, I completely exceeded all expectations I had for myself when I set out on this adventure. Next time I go, I'll be better mentally prepared. It's an experience I won't ever forget, and I've learnt a lot from it.


The view from [inside] the hostel I was staying at.

October

This month was essentially returning to normality from Fiji, and preparing to search for work/London in November. I celebrated a birthday, and had a lot of fun celebrating it. But I still did something "big" this month. I got to see one of my favourite bands 3ree at their London gig. It was a last minute decision, but one I was so glad to make because it meant I got to meet them too. It was a wonderful night. 


A seflie from the 3ree gig. I got lucky with the lighting.

November

Back to the theatre with Imogen! This time to see 'Dear Evan Hansen' on the West End. This was my 21st birthday present and well worth the wait. I did an entire post on it recently, which you can find here, so I won't go into too much detail. But I adored the show, and hope to go back in 2020.


On the steps of the Noel Coward Theatre.

December

Ending the year, I had two big events. Aside from finding a temporary job, which was wonderful to me, I returned to Leavesden Studios for the 'Harry Potter Studio Tour', and went to see 'Six' on the West End. 

Hogwarts in the Snow is my favourite season at the studio tour, and this time was no exception. There were more additions this time from the last time I was there, and the magic was just as real as the first time I went. Gringotts was gorgeous - I could spend all day in there. As always, I definitely recommend any Harry Potter fan going. 


The Burrow in Winter.

'Six' was such a feel good musical that I couldn't help but laugh and cry at it. I was excited to see it - the idea behind it was so unique. It's about Henry VIII's six wives, but the stuff you don't remember beyond who was divorced, beheaded, dead or survived. I'll do a review soon of it, but I recommend you go see it. 

Sitting in the theatre cafe before Six.

This post took a lot longer to write and format than I thought it would, but it's been wonderful to go through 2019. My decade review will be slightly different in format, in that I won't break it down month by month.
Thank you for reading through this! I know everyone will be doing them, so I couldn't help but join in on it. 

See you soon! 

-Emmaberry-


Wednesday 20 November 2019

You Will Be Found: Dear Evan Hansen Review

You Will Be Found

Dear Evan Hansen Theatre Review


My photo of the stage and programme.

A 'Part of Me' has been so excited to see this musical, since before the production started their North America tour. I’ve followed this show go from Broadway, to Toronto and all the way across America, before it was finally announced that it would be coming to the Noël Coward Theatre this Autumn. 
I got to see it on Tuesday 12th November, during previews, and it was definitely worth the two year wait!



This was my 21st birthday present from my friend, and fellow blogger, Imogen. I shared my initial thoughts in a Dear Evan Hansen group on Facebook, but wanted to do a full review to release after yesterday’s press night.

Without spoiling the play, Dear Evan Hansen follows the story of Evan, a senior in High School who just wants to fit in. After a letter that was never supposed to be seen gets out, Evan takes the opportunity to experience things he’s never had. A powerful, emotive story that had me smiling, laughing and crying throughout.

The photo I took of the stage and my ticket.

I was sat in the Grand Circle, which had a really great view. I did have to angle my head every so often because of the person in front of me, but it really didn’t impact my view at all. Only the very front of the stage was slightly restricted, but since there wasn’t any acting there, it didn’t bother me at all. 

Meeting Marcus Harman - Alternate Evan.

The West End company were spectacular. I won't go through and list every cast member, but be rest assured, they were all incredible! I was worried I’d have reservations because I love the Broadway company and how they sing the songs. There was no need to be worried, each song sounded similar and uniquely different. Marcus Harman nailed Evan – you wouldn’t have believed he was the alternate Evan, or it being his second performance! I’ve heard wonderful things about Sam Tutty, who plays Evan for 6 out of the 8 weekly performances too, so I’ll be sure to check him out when I can next afford to go. 

Sam Tutty - Evan Hansen - Photo from Daily Mail Article.

The songs fit so perfectly within the narrative, and after hearing them in context, it’s so hard to casually listen to them now. I also see why some songs were cut from musical and released only as the debut. ‘For Forever’ is emotional enough, let alone ‘Part of Me’ being played instead.

However, there were a few minor issues before and during the show that I hope will be fixed now that previews are over.
There was no cast board in the foyer, and the photo rules weren’t made clear. Some theatre goers were told no photos and others took photos, but no one was told to delete any that they'd taken.
During the show, I noticed that some of the music overpowered the singing. Most notably during ‘Sincerely, Me.’ It’s an upbeat song anyway, and although we could hear the singing, it was a big off putting at certain points. I’ve heard it’s an improvement from earlier previews, but I think it still needs a little bit of fine tuning to be perfect.

On the steps outside the theatre. One of the most powerful songs in the show.

I highly recommend you go and see this show. Despite needing some minor fixes, it doesn’t take away from the overall theatre performance at all. It’s emotional, moving and highly relatable. Also, if you’re interested in the use of technology in theatre, this is definitely a must – I was reminded a lot of Curious Incident in that respect.

I’m definitely going to see it again when I get the chance.

5 out of 5 Stars! 

Tuesday 19 November 2019

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

I'M BACK!



It's been 16 months since I uploaded anything on this blog, and now I'm finally back! Also, I totally titled it because all I could hear was Molly Weasley asking the boys that.


A lot has changed in this time, and I wanted to update you on that.

  • Third year of uni happened. I was part of the committee for the walking society, and in between doing that and coursework, there was no time to dedicate to blog posts. 
  • I graduated! I left uni with a 2:1, which I am so pleased about.
  • I spent the summer volunteering and looking for work, as well as trying to do Camp NaNo in July. 
  • I went off to Fiji for a few days. I was supposed to stay longer, but my overall health was getting worse each day I was there, so I came home early. 
I'm still looking for work, but think I'm in a good enough mental place to start writing blog posts again.


So what can we expect from my next trial at writing blog posts?

  • Theatre Trip Reviews.
  • Book Reviews.
  • Film Reviews. 
  • Film Analysis. 
  • Film Theories. 
  • Looking Back Posts - Do I agree with what I said in my previous blog posts? What about my old writing?
  • Posts dedicated to specific months - I have a Pride month collaboration in the works for 2020.
  • Possibly Writing prompts - Writemas is just around the corner, so I might share some of those prompts. 
It's essentially going to be a mishmash of inconsistent themes and posts, so I'd love to know what you think when they come out.

I can't wait to get back to blogging, so I hope I'll stay consistent this time!

-Emmaberry-